Sunday, June 29, 2008

Saturday, June 28, 2008

pms most likely

Tonight I roamed the streets of my town, with a high school partner in crime. Driving aimlessly for hours just like that night when we were 15 and kissed although tonight, no kissing but, memories. lots of memories. Of Big Black Cadillacs and parties and beer. He looks different I look different but his eyes are the same. Same eyes. Same smile. Same person in there, my only link to my past. our past.
Our past. Thats the part Ive missed from my life. I've moved eh 36 times? Im guessing. I stopped counting at 31 and that was several moves ago. I leave a little more behind each time I go so I have nothing even from 2 years ago with me let alone anything from so long ago. no people. Ive even forgotten names. Names he brought up and houses we drove past HOLY SHIT STUEY. i totally made out with stuey. and his crazy hair. I didnt even like him i think, i know, like that really. I just wanted love. thought he was funny. I guess. I dont remember.
I feel weird and fucked up like I belong here but dont? Even this house. They are swell but already I am no longer novel. Interest is wanning and I feel invisible. Im sure, that leads me to making videos in the first place. Being there for people like me, alone in their rooms, quietly creating. Awkward with boys. there was a boy the other day, in a store. I practically ran away I was so nervous. Which is funny because get me in a strip bar and I am in control. I hold my head high while wear nothing. I own every man in that room (did, past tense, as you know). But get me in the sunlight and look at me and ask me things and I cannot stop blushing.

He told me tonight I have to stop hiding. That I need to buy girly things and go somewhere where boys are. But I know I will only be sad when I get there. It seems so many things are confronting me in the last 2 weeks, leaving me all alone with myself and my emptiness. I am pms for sure, so that is probably it but still. I dont want to go to a bar alone and look for someone interesting to talk to, that will never happen. The wrong sorts go to bars anyway and you know my track record with first impressions. I fall in love at first site. Kiss now and find out youre a shithead later.

But Ive been running for so very long, dear chickies, that I am so far from everywhere Ive ever been. I cant feel anything, tangible. I hold onto pooh. pooh is real. pooh is what I have. brushes are real. and paints. How can one be terribly sad and terribly happy all at the same time?

I dont know if I will get this little dog. I have to ask questions about temperament and why they say she is 'shy'. Does that mean she is not good around other dogs? I want her and penny to get along, and what about cats? Oh i fall in love too quickly. I do.

Welcome To The Tea Party!




http://www.stickam.com/suziblu

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Friday, June 27, 2008

Fill Me Up ButtercUp

Its 1 am and dang nab it my back hurts and video is not edited BLEH.
so tomorrow morning i get up and finish finish.

Meet me here round 2pm EST for video then run on over to LIVE CHAT.
how do we chat you ask?
Easy Peasy.

Go to www.stickam.com

and sign up for an account. you do not need a webcam to join or chat.
Then when I post my chatroom tomorrow you can join on in in the mayhem.
Someone tell TASCHA we need her, like always, cause you know I suck without her.
Vanessa will be there too, in and out, as tomorrow is HER day and she will be busy
with all her lovely things she need to attend to, but we all will get a chance to
see her and hear her once or thrice.

ok see you kittens tomorrow afternoon.
KISSES
: *

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Tell me she isnt the cutest thing EVER



Her name is Holly. She is 3 years old. My GOODNESS look at that face. They say she likes to be held and cuddled and spoiled to death. I dont know much about Pekingese but my heart is heavy and she needs love. we'll see.

SAT JUNE 28 BLOG PARTY



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This Saturday Chickies!!
Come to my tea party and then bop on over to
Vanessa's and then we will spend the afternoon in LIVE CHAT
and eat too many cookies and drink too much tea!




If you would like to be guest hosts of the blog party and have a little
party on your blog as well YOU CAN. Just tell Vanessa and me and we will all
post each others links saturday morning on each others blogs and we can blog hop
PARTY PARTY PARTY!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Commence Reading

FINALLY my book is here. Now we can BEGIN. i am going to read 1/2 chapter a day which is aprox 30 pages. I will consider this mandatory. And make art when inspired. Its by Gregory Maguire so there is still time for you to pick up your copy and read with us.



Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Mail Taking its Time

This is one of a few letters I've received about prints taking time to reach their new homes:

Sorry, Suzi, but I threw out the packaging before I got this email asking for the date. I don't know what the problem was, but I was surprised it took a whole week to get to Ohio. Maybe tell the others to wait a bit more, because I had something mailed to me from California a while ago that took a little over two weeks to get to me that usually only takes about three or four days.
Thanks again,

Monday, June 23, 2008

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Dutchie Love

Dutchie Love On eBay




It is a really sunny day and my pictures came out a bit strange. Just too bright in spots.



Saturday, June 21, 2008

Dutchie LOVE coming soon!


Video tomorrow afternoon, dutchie painting up on auction early monday - dutchie time!
* Give me dutchie phrases, please. and their translation. pretty dutchy fairy words.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Attention DUTCHIE WOMEN



Send me photos for my next video!
suziblu@gmail.com


(I will do other countries on other videos I promise!!)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Hi sweet chickies






First I want to tell you all i love and adore you so much. I am overwhelmed with the amount of love I've received especially from the women from my blog. I am answering as many emails as I can and what I am asking for pictures from all of you to put on my wall, with your names so i can look at you always.

Now for FUN STUFF!
Just to keep it all very real Im going to show you some things you might not know about me but its hilarious just the same.

Years ago I made a few very bad B movies under the name VERONIKA BLU.
If you google it you will find

a)naked photos
b)some hilariously bad movies.

They are not porn so dont get your hopes up, but if you want to see me naked there ya go!

here is a website that has all my movies.
I AM A TERRIBLE ACTRESS.
There were no scripts.

www.wavemovies.com

One of the best things I did was a wrestling movie that has a slow motion shower scene at the end. My friend Pat edited it and its really lovely. That is out there too.

So buy away! Just remember I dont get any of the money. I used to have panic attacks really bad and every time I tried to work Id end up calling the ambulence from hyperventalating. I had a few very bad years in my life and for the few movies I made they paid me 200 dollars for the day. It was kind of fun because it was a small set, no scripts, and we'd make it up as we went along. I warn you though - these movies border on boring. One boyfriend said to me Sue, I love you, but these arent even bad funny enough to watch!

I look pretty hot tho so there ya go!


And here are a list of ebay auctions. check it for suzi blu stuff! My underwear might be next! The money does not go to me but it might help the person selling it be more happy. So there ya go! She has original journals in her storage by me, stuff I wrote when I was in deep pain, GREAT READING, seriously, bid high! Tell her to list them!!

http://search.ebay.com/_W0QQsassZemlovn



These are self portraits I took of myself.


Monday, June 16, 2008

Sunday, June 15, 2008

MISS U.S.A

So chickies! Read a book with me at the same time and lets make art about it! I just ordered WICKED from amazon.com. Go get your copy and we will all begin it together!



eBay Listing HERE




Friday, June 13, 2008

Art work For Party Girl Kit

Here she is what do you think? This will be for the Party Girl kit. You will receive watercolor paper with the outline of this girl already on it. There will be step by step instructions on how to shade her face and apply each layer to get an effect similar to mine. Paints, Collages papers, everything you need will be in the kit. Im sending it off to my partner in crime today.

Prints of this painting will be available tonight!

and so I was coating beeswax on Padre and my mom liked how it was coming out and I said - this is the most fun EVER. I could do it all the time. and if you have a voice in your head like that, don't add to it like I know its easy to do. No...ahhhh, but if i do it all the time I wont eat, make $, etc...

Why not? For once entertain the possibility that you can live your life the way you want. It is possible to spend entire days in the forest drinking tea with your cat. It is possible to make your own clothes out of vintage patterns from the 1940's you find on ebay - or to wear bunny slippers to buy groceries. Everything is possible if you open your mind and heart to it. Say yes to what yo want and BLEH to any and all negativity - even if its really neat and dressed up as reality. pay special attention to that.

Easy, yes, from a chica who lives safely at her parents. But whatever your safe haven is - GET THERE NOW. Dont spend one more hour doing things you don't love.

You rent your socks, remember that. You own nothing. The details of your life mean nothing when your dead so never feel bad if you arent materially successful. Dream anyway.

Just for today I will allow myself the luxury of believing that my dreams are possible.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Wounds


Some show and some don't.
the later is from rounding up a kitty and forgetting to make the kitty burrito.
That's a lesson you don't need to learn twice.

slept all day.
tomorrow i paint.
fourth of july is upon us!

Saturday, June 07, 2008

No one worry!

I am in a very safe place. now!
phew!!

Friday, June 06, 2008

Altered Board Book







electricity out for 2 days. forgive my lateness.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Storm knocked out my electricity for 24 lovely hours.

Power had been out here since 3 PM yesterday and stayed out until i went to bed at midnight. made a journal entry by candle light. had the door open and a puppy gate in front of it (most of the windows in this house and painted shut). I ate 4 ice cream sandwiches (had to the fridge was getting warm) and 6 mint milanos. I watched a june bug struggle to fly. I read the newspaper that I bought for LuLu to pee on. Found out Obama won. Went to bed.

Now its thursday at 9:30 am.
Im editing.
Get your board books ready!
This will be good!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Doll in French is Poupee!







I want to call them
LES PETITE PAPIER DOLLS




Sunday, June 01, 2008

Prints are Up

PRINTS PRINTS PRINTS!
In My Etsy Shop




Paper Dolls I'm playing with.




She just had a haircut. You can no longer tell.